All my life I have been searching for the peace of mind with my family. And all I wished for was my family’s acceptance to who I am and I did everything that I could to seek and fulfill this wish of mine.
After years of trying to do that over and over and over, I’ve realized that they don’t see me at all..as if I don’t exist and through this process, I have lost myself and my cause.
I sat with myself lately and I told myself that this is the chance for me to just pull myself away and try to save whatever is left and give all this care and love to myself since I’ll never be able to get along with them and that this would make me feel better. I have wasted energy and time for the sake of one thing while there are things that could have happened and would just get ME to the peace of mind but towards myself, with myself.
I figured that it isn’t worth it.. it never was actually because people would never change their minds for the sake of you trying to prove them wrong, and yes!, not even your family.
God knows me best and knows how much I tried.
And God loves me and accepts me the way I am which is enough for me and that everybody would just think however they wanna think.
I am done.
May God bless all the souls who are and were draining themselves trying to fit in and still no progress.
May God mend our broken hearts and give us the strength to move on with life and fulfill us with self acceptance.
-HKG
HalaKhaledG. 